Thursday, March 7, 2013

Back in the Game





I love to write. And, for as long as I can remember, people have encouraged me to do so. More specifically, to write a book. Some said it jokingly because it seemed as though there was always some sort of drama going on (which, for awhile, there was). I’d joke along with them about the many potential future chronicles. Others felt that I should share my story to bring encouragement to others going through their own hard times. Undoubtedly, God has been faithful to meet me in some painful seasons of life and I was well aware that the comfort I received was something I needed to pass along to others…

Though writing a book was, in fact, something that I desired to do, I always felt the time was not right; that it would take place years, possibly even decades, down the pike. And to be perfectly honest, why would anyone want to hear from some random chick in New York? What right did I have to even pursue such a lofty endeavor? Sure God has brought me through some terrible circumstances but "those" days were over. And "those" circumstances included memories that I could have gone without remembering. Not to mention the people it could effect. Yes, God has brought me through some real storms and through the fire. I was finally on the other side of "those" times and tremendously thankful to be out and not have to return to such deep pain. No, I decided to stick to blogging for leisure as I figured out what it was that I was supposed to be doing with my life. Besides, if the opportunity ever did arise for a book to be written, I was sure that by that time, the right topic would have become clear. Of course, I figured "that" time was far, far away.

Well, the topic did become clear. And so did the confirmation. 
Much earlier than I anticipated. And then came the next confirmation. And the next one. And wide open doors to write. And promises from the Word. And encouragement from others. And countless confirmations after that. So I began to write. And write some more. Online and offline. The topic was finally clear however, as time went by, the ability to sit down and actually write about it became difficult. Opposition kicked in hard in a variety of ways and my specific focus began to fizzle out which eventually affected my writing overall. But I chalked it up to the fact that “maybe it’s just not the right time.” Rather than acknowledging that all the opposition and distraction was basically proof that it really was time.

Fast forward a little more… I hit a wall in my writing… which is no secret to any of you who regularly pass through this space. I tried to justify the absence by the fact that I’ve continued to write offline here and there or that “maybe it’s not a season for me to blog” or because I’ve been busy. I wish I could give you a legit explanation but I honestly can’t. The fact of the matter is, I have no valid excuse except for outright laziness and disobedience. I’ve been off the radar in the blogosphere and the bottom line is that I have not been a good steward of what God has entrusted to me. So, rather than write a bunch of fluff about that, I’m hitting the reset button and am starting over. (Hallelujah for God's grace!). The Lord made it real to me tonight at my church’s prayer meeting (which I plan to write more about on another day cuz God met me in an awesome way) that it’s time to get back in the game.

So here I am. I’m back. Stay tuned… There’s much to share. :)

pressing on toward the goal…

(and jumping up and screaming like Tyson Chandler… in a very writer-like way...) 



2 comments:

MOM said...

Our God is faithful and the vision awaited an appointed time!

David Wilma McClelland said...

Glad you're back. Can't wait to see what God is doing!