Saturday, December 17, 2011

What We Really Need To Know

Remember these origami fortune tellers? (I don’t know another name for them – wish I did). The little thingamajigs we folded up with our loose-leaf paper. It was a pastime for many of us during school (when we should’ve been paying attention). We ‘found out’ the answers to silly questions that were written inside. I had not seen one of these things in years until this week. When I did, it made me chuckle and brought back a lot of memories...

It would be nice to find out in real life the answers to our many questions. I know there are several things I need clarity on. If you would have told me two years ago – even a year and a half ago – that I would be living back in New York, I would have laughed at you. Really hard. God certainly has a sense of humor. Returning to NY was not a desire in my heart (at the time) yet it was part of God’s plan for my life.

Another unexpected opportunity was presented to me this past week. Some of you know that I am on the hunt for full-time work. I still have not found anything but was given the chance to substitute teach at one of my old schools. One of the teachers is ill and I am filling in to teach religion every other day to 7th and 8th graders. I probably would have never considered doing something like this but I am glad to have this experience as I continue to look for a permanent job.

This week, I noticed a student with one of these little paper fortune tellers on their desk. Talk about a throwback. It’s been years since I’d seen one. Over the past few days, I’ve thought back quite a bit in amazement at how much God has done in my life. I am not the same person who used to roam the halls of Martin Luther. I was an angry and rebellious young person. All I cared about was me and, in my pursuit for happiness, I experienced a lot of pain and brought a lot of pain on others as well. It was not a happy season at all.

I look back and recognize how much God has changed me and I rejoice. Though there is presently much room for improvement in my life, I do recognize, after reflection, just how much of a miracle I am. Any life that has been transformed by the power of Jesus Christ is a true bona fide miracle. His resurrection power was our resurrection power. And His resurrection power can be yours if you have not already experienced it. A power that is available to us all.

Sometimes, before taking a step of faith, it’s good to look back and remember all that the Lord has done. If that’s the only reason I’m a substitute teacher at my alma mater, then I am grateful. I needed that reminder.

Though I have no idea what’s next in my life (not that I’ve ever known) and it would be cool to bust out a little paper thing to find out a few answers, I thank God that I can look back and see what I really need to know – His constant faithfulness in my life. The eyes of my heart have been enlightened once again to the greatness of God’s power. That’s the most important answer. He’ll show me what else I need to know when it’s time. Sometimes God takes us on detours that seem to be strange at the moment, but they are always worth it once we get another glimpse of how great He truly is. That's what we really need to know.

I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might which He brought about in Christ, when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come.


Lis said...

"I was an angry and rebellious young person. All I cared about was me and, in my pursuit for happiness, I experienced a lot of pain and brought a lot of pain on others as well. It was not a happy season at all."

Just this week I wrote out my testimony for something and my words were SO similar to the above quote from your post.

Great post as usual!

Delita said...

I was like you in some way too. 2 years ago God called me back to my hometown and live with my parents again after years of having my own world with my own rules. I didn't know why but now lil by lil God reveals the reason and same like you too Don't know what await in the future but we both can count on Jesus and trust him the one who hold our future :)