A few of my close Chicago friends know (and have stories ... one rather humorous) about how I'm constantly in multiple translations of whatever I'm reading in Bible. I do so because, a few years ago, I felt incredibly convicted about having several versions of the Bible on my shelves, and a number of them were rarely being used. Meanwhile some people in other countries are persecuted for carrying a few pages of one. That realization made me want to use every single translation. It hit me like a ton of bricks and I didn't want to take it for granted anymore.
But the other reason I love to read in different translations is because it sometimes give a fresh perspective on passages that I've read many times and have become overly familiar with. Anyway, all that to say, I read this verse tonight and it really spoke to my heart because I hadn't seen it this way before.
Friends, when life gets really difficult, don't jump to the conclusion that God isn't on the job. Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with glory just around the corner. - 1 Peter 4:12-13
So, today was not the greatest day. Nothing horrendous at all. I've definitely had days that were really difficult. Today I just found myself incredibly annoyed about not knowing my next steps. I'm at a crossroads in my life right now, waiting on God to tell me which way to turn. Waiting is not easy, especially when I feel there must be something else I should be doing. Instead of sitting at Jesus' feet like Mary, I'm trying to find something to do, like Martha. I'm willing to turn where He tells me, however, it's not clear just yet which way I'm to go. But, as much as I want to be doing what I'm supposed to be doing in the Kingdom, I have a feeling that the clarity is not going to come as I'm doing for Him but as I'm being with Him. Deep down, I know that the Lord has me on the right path but when I don't keep my eyes fixed on Jesus as I should be, my sight gets all distorted and wind up looking ahead with spiritually crusty and faithless eyes.
Faith does come by hearing the Word of God and I am thankful for this timely message to me in His Word tonight. I rejoice that God is on the job. He always is. He's the same yesterday, today and forever. Though my circumstances and emotions change (which, as a 33 year old woman, happens a lot), He never changes. And, with my eyes refocused and fixed on Jesus, I can truly say that I am glad. I am blessed. I have a Savior who loves me. He paid the price and paved the way for me. He is refining me along the journey, making me more like Him. And glory is just around the corner.
"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."