Thursday, September 4, 2008

Change

I haven't updated this thing in the longest. I have SO many pictures to add and no time. Now that I'm a student I feel like time is not my own anymore. In fact, I'm only on here cuz I need my laptop to re-charge before I go back to the library.
So ... I'm a student. It's kind of surreal. I knocked on the door to return to school so many times. The door didn't even open when I worked at a university but God's timing is always perfect. Now that I'm here, it's very strange. Especially being "old" - at least compared to a lot of people. (Whatever ... I'm still thrilled to be 30! ... I know my 30s will be WAY better than my 20s). Anyway, the classes are great, I'm pretty excited about them. And the work isn't bad. I just need to get into student mode, which is hard considering I don't think I ever got into student mode when I was a student. I'm rambling.
Anyway, it's an interesting season. I knew when God opened this door, it wouldn't be easy. But I also knew it would be awesome and fruitful. Open doors are always harder than closed doors. Open doors require walking through - by faith. And every step of this journey requires faith and total dependency on the Lord. Easier said than done, but you can never go wrong doing that. God is doing a deep work in my heart. I don't even know how to put it into words, but He's doing something. I've seen Him move in such amazing ways already.
In fact, here's an awesome praise report...
(reader's digest version)
Switching to part-time hours at work was gonna be rough. I knew that up front but didn't realize how rough til I looked at the numbers again. Anyway, long story short, I got extra money in loans that I was able to use to pay my rent for the next couple of months. AND the Lord worked out my health insurance situation! Many of you know how that was a major thing for me. Don't get me started on healthcare in America. That's another blog.
But God is faithful. It's easy to get caught up in the moment - in the STRESS - and forget that HE opened the door. He is faithful to complete the work that HE started. I had to start talking to myself to switch gears. Bless the Lord, o my soul! Sometimes we gotta do that.
One of my co-workers shared a devotion this morning about "if-only" disease. Timely message cuz I was getting sick!
If only I could go to school without working.
If only I had finished school earlier in life.
If only I could have free GOOD healthcare.
If only I had more money.
If only, If only, If only...
He shared from Philippians and it has stayed with me today...
Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.
What an awesome reminder! ... "Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done..."
Thank you, Jesus!
Well, my battery's almost charged so I'm signing off. Sorry if this entry is all over the place. I'm kinda spacey and need some coffee. Off to the library...
- JRo :)

3 comments:

mtranier2008 said...

i needed this today. thank you jenn!!

Courtney said...

this is great, jenn! what translation is that?

Courtney

shelly70x7 said...

booboo...wow, that rocked my face. Thanks friend...oh profound reminders to worship =) Love you boo boo